I was known for my contagious smile and laughter. You could hear my laugh from at least 500 yards away. That was my ministry to laugh and make others laugh to see pass their hurt and pain.
I would look you in the eyes and sincerely ask you how you were doing. I would genuinely listen to your concerns, tragedies, and dilemmas. I would smile at you and then proceed to let you know that I would be praying for you. When I said I would pray for you, I would mean it. I would then later in time bring up that concern in privacy and people would be shocked that I remembered their situations exactly as they described. I have a heart for people.
However, after the passing of my son King Josiah (K.J.) my smile turned to tears and my laughter turned into groaning of pure pain. I sobbed uncontrollably, asking the very same God that I prayed to and communed with daily, one simple question, “Why me?” This is precious your daughter. . . However, I had to make a choice was I going to live and continue my ministry to people and push through the pain. Or would I fall to my own demise due to the hurt.
It choose to smile! I choose to push past my past experience of the death of my son and choose to be a ministry to hurting men and women all over this world. I choose to share my story to the masses. I choose to have King Josiah Sims live though my heart beat that is ever presently beating. Choose the same for you, for your spouse or the Father of our child that is no longer with you, for the children you may have had prior to your loss. Choose to have joy unspeakable! Selah